Breakfast - Spark drink and ham & cheese omelet
Lunch - Nothing
Afternoon snack: almonds and cheddar cheese
Dinner -bun-less cheesburger with low-carb ketchup, broccoli & cauliflower, and cottage cheese
Water: 80 oz.
Exercise: None - worked through my m-effing lunch again!
3 comments:
Tough love time.
You're not eating enough. I know you worked through lunch but you HAVE to make time, Jess. You can't use your busy schedule as an excuse if you're going to be successful. Yesterday's menu didn't look like enough either. Granted, you don't put how much of each thing you're eating but to me, it just screams hungry.
Think back to what has worked best for you. Do that again and stick to it. Plan your meals. Every single one of them. This is not something you can just fly by the seat of your pants with. You have to plan. You have to be patient. You have to let yourself have things so you don't feel deprived. Deprivation leads to binges. Trust me, I've been there.
Don't think in terms of low carb or low fat. Think in terms of healthy foods - vegetables, fruit, whole grains, lean protein, healthy fat. I had to change the way I viewed food plans in general. I can do low carb and still fit it into my WW mentality. Or, I can do WW and still fit into my low carb mentality.
Seriously, how do you want to eat for the rest of your life? Honestly, I've learned that "jump starting" is just bullshit. I see your jump start and I get the feeling you're pissed off and frustrated with it. I know you don't want to feel that for the rest of your life. You deserve better than anger and frustration. You deserve to be healthy and happy.
So think about which foods honestly make you feel best about yourself. Make a menu of your favorite meals from that style. Rely on those as your base and expand when possible. Promise yourself that you make the time to eat SOMETHING at least every 3 hours. Even if it's almonds. Almonds are great.
I can't remember how Matt & the boys eat, but there's no reason to make separate meals, as long as what is served is healthy. If anyone complains about healthy food, let them starve.
I <3 you.
Calorie-wise, I'm not doing too bad. I have actually been tracking my food through Sparkpeople again so you can click on my link and see my portions, calories, etc. I do want to note that Monday I completely forgot to log two pieces of pizza that I had, as well as a small glass of wine from last night. So...I haven't been exactly perfect on the food tracking.
To be quite honest with you, I'm not hungry. That's why I'm not eating much. My cravings are nearly non-existent too, if you can believe that. I don't feel deprived right now...I don't know what has changed. I think a lot of it has to do with just being fucking sick and tired of being sick and tired and being FAT. I look at myself and I feel disgusting and I just want to cry. I'm tired of not having the energy to play with my kids or feeling worn out when I do so. Plus, I wanted to do this challenge to see if I could actually stay away from the foods that are my downfall. This is the first time in my life that I don't feel controlled by food. My candy dish is even still at my desk and I have not had one piece of it, nor any chocolate. :)
To be honest with you, I don't know how much of my issues are actual binge eating versus being a little OCD when it comes to food. It's like if I know something I like is in the house, I have to eat it until it's gone. But...I've had several things in the house these past few weeks that is normally tempting that I haven't given a second thought to.
Plus, I know that the bigger part of my eating is emotional. This is also the first time in my life that I'm giving into my emotions and actually feeling them, despite how painful they may be.
I don't know...I'm just at a really weird place right now. I don't know what to make of it just yet.
Oh, and fear not...I have planned out a "cheat night" with my BFF for her birthday on Friday. I still don't think I'll go hog wild but I'm definitely having a couple margaritas and a snack at the movie theater. :) So instead of binging...I'm planning my next "cheat" so I have something to look forward to and know that I don't have to deprive myself constantly.
Oh and I'm not angry about the "diet". I'm more angry about all of the shit I'm having to deal with at work right now. That's what you're sensing more than anything.
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