So I totally deactivated my Facebook because I can't stand the political negativity right now. I joined Facebook back in 2009 for fun and to keep up with my friends and family but it's lost its luster for me. Because of this, I think I might revive this old thing.
So what has been going on since I was last here?
- My job was eliminated in May 2015 after I busted my ass for a corporate merger to be successful. Turns out it doesn't matter that you put in 40+ hours a week, sacrifice time from your family, etc...corporate America just doesn't give a fuck about you so just be aware.
- I started working for a new company, doing the same thing (workers' compensation for employers) in late 2015. The new company is extremely small but I'm back working with clients and doing what I love. The higher-ups in the company actually appreciate us and know that there is value in what we do. The difference in how I am treated now versus the previous company is amazing!
- Adrian moved out. He is 19 now and having many personal problems. He isn't talking to us now but is working full-time and going to school so there's that. He also seems happy from what we've been told. I'm not stressing too much about him right now since I fully believe he'll come back around. He's just going through an independent phase, which I did as well at the same age. I still miss him but he's an adult so I'm just letting him spread his wings and fly.
- Collin started middle school (6th grade) this year. Waaahhh! My baby is growing up too quickly! He also received an autism spectrum disorder back in 2015 around the time my job was eliminated so that's been a roller coaster of emotions.
- I remain head over heels in love with Matt. He gets me and accepts me for who I am...flaws and all. We've been together for 17 years now (married for 13) and we're to the point where we finish each others sentences, have the same thoughts at the same time (he deactivated his Facebook yesterday too, LOL!), and all kinds of other good things. I love that man something fierce!
- I am now seeing a therapist, dietitian, psychiatrist, and psychologist to help me work through my eating disorder and related issues. I was diagnosed with PTSD and Major Depressive Disorder back in May and just recently started EMDR therapy to address my PTSD. I haven't lost much weight since I started this journey in March but I'm okay with that. For the first time in my life, I'm comfortable in my own skin and I love myself. That is HUGE! I'm less worried about losing weight and more concerned about getting where I need to be mentally and emotionally. Once that happens, I believe that the rest will fall into place.
So yeah...all good stuff for the most part. I don't expect anyone to read this but it will be nice to have an outlet for my feelings as I continue this journey and to find some new blogs to read to fill the void that Facebook has left. I'm also looking forward to reading more books and just doing more things for myself.
Life is good people. Life is good. 💖💖💖
