That's what I weighed in at today. I looked over my stats on SparkPeople and I haven't weighed this in over 2 years; since April 2007 to be exact.
I honestly haven't been on much of a plan. I'm just eating when I'm hungry, keeping up on my water, working out again (jogging), and limiting my sweets.
I am a little nervous about my eating while I'm gone in South Dakota but I think I'll do okay. I doubt I'll lose any weight but I don't expect to gain a ton. I am definitely looking forward to Indian Tacos, Blanket Dogs (hot dogs wrapped up in Indian fry bread), and Buffalo Burgers. As we all know, I hate salads; well, at least the plain Jane ones (grilled chicken and lettuce) but if we eat out, I'll probably just get grilled chicken and veggies. Now that is a good meal right there!
I've got our hotels booked already since I know there's no way that I can drive all the way through since I'm driving by myself. We'll be staying in Rochester, Minnesota on July 1st and then near South Bend, Indiana on the way back.
Adrian is stoked. He cannot wait to leave so he meet our relatives and see where are ancestors came from. I feel bad because my Mom was talking to him about making his regalia and he really thought he was going to be dancing at the tribal pow-wow. Soon enough though...
I can't remember if I mentioned it, but along the dancing at pow-wows line, I have decided to let my hair grow out again so I can start dancing again (in pow-wows) once I'm out of school. It's not that I need long hair to dance but I would like to have it - plus I miss it. My hair has been long most of my life and it's time for a change since I've worn it short for over 3 years now.
I'm not sure how much internet access I'll have but I imagine that I'll upload some random pictures to Facebook while I'm gone. So...check 'em out there. :)
Hope everyone has a great 4th of July if I don't blog again before then...
Sunday, June 28, 2009
Tuesday, June 23, 2009
Blah
That's how I feel.
I am not doing very well at getting a decent amount of sleep right now. In fact, I didn't get "caught up" on my sleep this weekend since I had a ton of errands to do and I'm paying for it now...I feel physically ill. :( Bless Matt's heart...he let me crash on the couch for about 2 1/2 hours. I feel a little better but I'm still going to bed in a few minutes.
I don't think my medication is helping me right now either. My doctor switched my anti-depressant about two months ago and I started having some really not so fun side effects. It helped the depression but I noticed that if I accidentally missed a dose, I would get these overwhelming feelings of really dark depression...not very much fun. So...my doctor is putting me back on my old standby. The only thing that makes me nervous about that is my binge eating. The medication I was taking was helping with that. I'm not positive how much of that was the medication or how much of that was me just getting better at recognizing my triggers and having a little more self-restraint. Guess we'll see, huh?
I finally started working out again this week. I really want to re-start the shred soon but I'm taking baby steps and starting with jogging again. I can't tell you how depressed it made me that I wasn't able to keep up with shredding. That was just yet another time that I bit off more than I could chew. I may re-start it once I get back from South Dakota. I have got to tone up; especially in my arms, thighs, and stomach area.
I am not doing very well at getting a decent amount of sleep right now. In fact, I didn't get "caught up" on my sleep this weekend since I had a ton of errands to do and I'm paying for it now...I feel physically ill. :( Bless Matt's heart...he let me crash on the couch for about 2 1/2 hours. I feel a little better but I'm still going to bed in a few minutes.
I don't think my medication is helping me right now either. My doctor switched my anti-depressant about two months ago and I started having some really not so fun side effects. It helped the depression but I noticed that if I accidentally missed a dose, I would get these overwhelming feelings of really dark depression...not very much fun. So...my doctor is putting me back on my old standby. The only thing that makes me nervous about that is my binge eating. The medication I was taking was helping with that. I'm not positive how much of that was the medication or how much of that was me just getting better at recognizing my triggers and having a little more self-restraint. Guess we'll see, huh?
I finally started working out again this week. I really want to re-start the shred soon but I'm taking baby steps and starting with jogging again. I can't tell you how depressed it made me that I wasn't able to keep up with shredding. That was just yet another time that I bit off more than I could chew. I may re-start it once I get back from South Dakota. I have got to tone up; especially in my arms, thighs, and stomach area.
Saturday, June 20, 2009
Down 4.2 lbs.
to 227. *Sigh* One of these days I'll figure out what the hell I'm doing so I can consistently lose weight and feel better.
My biggest flaw is a personal one. My husband will vouch for that. I tend to have these big dreams/aspirations about things (i.e. scrap booking, helping babysit for a close friend, starting a new workout program or "diet") and then when it's time to do it, I just don't...because I'm one of those people who bite off more than they can chew. I almost never tell anyone no and that my friends, makes me a good friend, but not so much a good mom or wife.
So to those of you that I've let down or hurt, I'm really, really sorry. My biggest obstacle with getting completely on track is my lifestyle. I am really busy, but I'm a huge time waster (Matt will vouch for that too). I get into these vicious cycles that I can't get out of. For instance, I mentioned that my schedule changed this week for work. Well...I have not been getting home until 6:30 p.m. and I leave at 6:30 a.m. (or so) for work - that's 12 hours per day that I'm gone for work 4 days per week. By the time I get home, I'm mentally and even physically drained from the long day and pretty much don't feel like doing anything other than mindless things (i.e. blogging or cruising my favorite internet sites). The mindless things keep me up until midnight, which leaves me tired as hell. I have got to break this cycle!!! I barely did any housework and I definitely was no mom of the week. I suck at balancing things; it's like I'm hardwired to only be able to handle a few things at a time before I just start ignoring things (my e-mail, my blog, my friends...sometimes). Sad.
I have been wanting to get healthy for a long time. I was actually going to put it off until I got out of school but I just got tired of how I felt and how I looked. So...I'm just going to keep plugging along and if I don't lose this weight for another 5 years (depressing!) then so be it. I'm going to start focusing on not binging anymore, making better food choices, and getting in physical activity when I can...which seems to only be during my lunch hour at work since I don't feel like working out by the time I get home and I am not an early riser. Plus, it seems that when I focus on getting my workouts in at night, my poor house just falls to the wayside...which goes back to the whole "I really suck at balancing things" deal.
I'm also sorry that I can be so damn wishy-washy. I wish I could just pick something and stick with it. For instance, I can tell you that I was honestly happier all last month when I was just eating reasonably healthy and not doing low-carb. I think the bigger reason why I'm back to doing it is because of our upcoming trip. I really, really want to be a little thinner than when I went 5 years ago. I just want to look/feel sexy in the pictures that I'm sure are going to be taken....know what I mean.
I imagine that once we get back from vacation that we may go on Weight Watchers. Matt only has about 20-25 more lbs. to lose until he gets to his goal weight and the closer he gets, the less Nazi-like he is about low-carbing. It seems like when I was on WW that I was consistently losing between 1-4 lbs. every week. There was a variety of food choices and I felt really good about myself when I was on their program.
Who knows though??? I'm sure I'll probably change my mind before then because that's just how I roll. :oP
My biggest flaw is a personal one. My husband will vouch for that. I tend to have these big dreams/aspirations about things (i.e. scrap booking, helping babysit for a close friend, starting a new workout program or "diet") and then when it's time to do it, I just don't...because I'm one of those people who bite off more than they can chew. I almost never tell anyone no and that my friends, makes me a good friend, but not so much a good mom or wife.
So to those of you that I've let down or hurt, I'm really, really sorry. My biggest obstacle with getting completely on track is my lifestyle. I am really busy, but I'm a huge time waster (Matt will vouch for that too). I get into these vicious cycles that I can't get out of. For instance, I mentioned that my schedule changed this week for work. Well...I have not been getting home until 6:30 p.m. and I leave at 6:30 a.m. (or so) for work - that's 12 hours per day that I'm gone for work 4 days per week. By the time I get home, I'm mentally and even physically drained from the long day and pretty much don't feel like doing anything other than mindless things (i.e. blogging or cruising my favorite internet sites). The mindless things keep me up until midnight, which leaves me tired as hell. I have got to break this cycle!!! I barely did any housework and I definitely was no mom of the week. I suck at balancing things; it's like I'm hardwired to only be able to handle a few things at a time before I just start ignoring things (my e-mail, my blog, my friends...sometimes). Sad.
I have been wanting to get healthy for a long time. I was actually going to put it off until I got out of school but I just got tired of how I felt and how I looked. So...I'm just going to keep plugging along and if I don't lose this weight for another 5 years (depressing!) then so be it. I'm going to start focusing on not binging anymore, making better food choices, and getting in physical activity when I can...which seems to only be during my lunch hour at work since I don't feel like working out by the time I get home and I am not an early riser. Plus, it seems that when I focus on getting my workouts in at night, my poor house just falls to the wayside...which goes back to the whole "I really suck at balancing things" deal.
I'm also sorry that I can be so damn wishy-washy. I wish I could just pick something and stick with it. For instance, I can tell you that I was honestly happier all last month when I was just eating reasonably healthy and not doing low-carb. I think the bigger reason why I'm back to doing it is because of our upcoming trip. I really, really want to be a little thinner than when I went 5 years ago. I just want to look/feel sexy in the pictures that I'm sure are going to be taken....know what I mean.
I imagine that once we get back from vacation that we may go on Weight Watchers. Matt only has about 20-25 more lbs. to lose until he gets to his goal weight and the closer he gets, the less Nazi-like he is about low-carbing. It seems like when I was on WW that I was consistently losing between 1-4 lbs. every week. There was a variety of food choices and I felt really good about myself when I was on their program.
Who knows though??? I'm sure I'll probably change my mind before then because that's just how I roll. :oP
Thursday, June 18, 2009
Bone Marrow Donation
You can join the registry for free if you sign up prior to June 22nd. I meant to post about this when it started and I got sidetracked (surprise, surprise!) but please check it out and sign up if you're able to and if you want to help save someone's life.
I'm super excited to get my kit so I can be typed (or whatever the heck it's called). I am bi-racial (Native American and Caucasian) at that so I really, really hope that I'm able to help someone. My husband probably won't be very happy but he'll get over it. :oP
Here is the website; I hope you'll consider donating: http://www.marrow.org/ Check out the FAQs because they have debunked so many myths; myths that deter people from donating. They explain the procedure in detail (if you're chosen to donate) as well as the recovery time for the donor afterwards.
I feel so warm and fuzzy inside right now. On that note, I'm off to bed. I've got a fun-filled day with my boys tomorrow. :)
I'm super excited to get my kit so I can be typed (or whatever the heck it's called). I am bi-racial (Native American and Caucasian) at that so I really, really hope that I'm able to help someone. My husband probably won't be very happy but he'll get over it. :oP
Here is the website; I hope you'll consider donating: http://www.marrow.org/ Check out the FAQs because they have debunked so many myths; myths that deter people from donating. They explain the procedure in detail (if you're chosen to donate) as well as the recovery time for the donor afterwards.
I feel so warm and fuzzy inside right now. On that note, I'm off to bed. I've got a fun-filled day with my boys tomorrow. :)
Nothing spells motivation like a...
B-I-K-I-N-II'm one of THOSE vacationers. You know...the fat ones who probably shouldn't be in bikinis but says to hell with it since they're on vacation in a foreign country where they'll never see anyone again. Yep...that's me. I just don't give a shiz. :oP (the bikini halter you see above is the actual bikini...the bottoms are boy shorts in the same pattern/colors).
Old Navy has their bathing suits on sale right now so I bought two bikinis for our anniversary trip. I tried them on today and had Matt take some pictures. Holy hell?! If that wasn't motivating enough, I don't know what is?!?!?! I may share them eventually...just not right now. I'll drop some more weight and then use them as progress pics.
Yeah...I definitely, definitely need to drop at least 15 lbs. before I leave.
I still have yet to work out this week. I am just flat worn out. Collin didn't sleep well at all on Monday and Tuesday and this new work schedule has me all screwed up. I'm not getting home until 6:30 and my motivation is seriously lacking this week because I'm just really burned out right now. The good news is that by working late, I'll be home by noon tomorrow! :D The boys and I are going to lunch and then swimming until Matt gets home. They are so excited and so am I...I rarely get quality time with them so this will be a welcome change.
On a happy note, I leave in less than two weeks for South Dakota and our friends from Ireland will be here to visit next week. :) They'll be here (in the states...not with us) for almost 3 weeks so we'll probably see them a couple of times. I can't wait!!!
Tuesday, June 16, 2009
Kashi Go Lean Crunch
Is the bomb! I just bought it at the store the other night for the first time as a back-up snack. I was still hungry after dinner last night and so I had myself a bowl. I think it might be my new favorite cereal. :)
I am doing well in the eating department this week. I'm not eating as low-carb as I had wanted to; I wanted to do Induction through Atkins' plan but I'm still keeping my carbs at 30-50 per day, so that's not bad. I still haven't gotten a chance to work out but I've been busy doing stuff around the house since I'm on break from school this week. I'm shooting to work out at lunch or at home tonight...
I am doing well in the eating department this week. I'm not eating as low-carb as I had wanted to; I wanted to do Induction through Atkins' plan but I'm still keeping my carbs at 30-50 per day, so that's not bad. I still haven't gotten a chance to work out but I've been busy doing stuff around the house since I'm on break from school this week. I'm shooting to work out at lunch or at home tonight...
Sunday, June 14, 2009
Best invention ever!
The Rival Sno Cone maker. I have a feeling that sno cones are going to be my new favorite treat. The good news is that they make sugar-free sno cone syrup (thanks, Becky!) that is only 5 calories and 0 carbs per 2 oz. serving. Yummy!
On a food related note, I did good today. Actually, a little too good. I was busy doing projects around the house and skipped lunch altogether. I made it (egg salad) but I didn't get a chance to eat it before dinner. My calories are way too low right now (under 1000) and so I'm going to go eat something else...I just have to figure out what now??? Maybe that egg salad pita...
ETA: I did end up having the egg salad pita with some swiss cheese. My calories are now less than 1700 and my carbs less than 50. I had wanted to be closer to 30 carbs but 50 isn't bad...I also got in my water for the day (120 oz.)...yay! :)
On a food related note, I did good today. Actually, a little too good. I was busy doing projects around the house and skipped lunch altogether. I made it (egg salad) but I didn't get a chance to eat it before dinner. My calories are way too low right now (under 1000) and so I'm going to go eat something else...I just have to figure out what now??? Maybe that egg salad pita...
ETA: I did end up having the egg salad pita with some swiss cheese. My calories are now less than 1700 and my carbs less than 50. I had wanted to be closer to 30 carbs but 50 isn't bad...I also got in my water for the day (120 oz.)...yay! :)
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