Wow! That didn't last very long.

I'm off of low-carb and back on Weight Watchers as of today. I didn't do terrible on low-carb but I could feel myself headed toward a binge so I decided to go back on WW and give it my full efforts. I do feel bad for deserting Matt but he just wants me to do whatever makes me happy and works for me. He is not low-carbing long-term. Just long enough to get his holiday pounds off and then he'll probably go on WW with me.

I had a great weigh-in this morning! :) I lost 4 lbs. (well, 3.9 to be exact but I'm saying 4) since last week. Yippee!!! That puts me at 240.5 lbs. (boo!). I'm back to shooting for a one pound weight loss per week, which is completely do-able if I stick to my guns, which I fully plan on doing.

Don't be surprised if you don't "see" me here this week. I only posted today because I wanted to share my weigh-in and let you know that I changed my mind yet again on my eating plan. I have a ton of homework to get finished up this week, as well as study for and take my finals. This Business Algebra class is kicking my ass. I still have two assignments and a quiz to take before I can even think about studying for the final, which is on Thursday. I don't know if I mentioned it but with this class, you can't move on to the next lesson until you've mastered the one before it so that's why I'm behind...plus I suck at math. As far as my Microeconomics class goes, I've got my final project to finish up as well as to study for and take the final. I will be surprised if I don't end up having to take Wednesday off to finish up homework and study for both exams.

Needless to say, I'm having near panic attacks because I feel like I have so much to do and not enough time. I CANNOT wait until this weekend so I can take a breather!

Ehh

That's how I feel right now. I did fairly well with my low-carb eating until Thursday night. I was so fricking hungry and all I wanted was a bowl of Quaker Oatmeal Squares cereal. So, I caved and had some. Grr. About half way through, I was satisfied, but yet I continued to eat and I finished the whole damn thing. (damn the mentality my parents drilled in me about being clean plater!). The good news is that despite there being a shitload of candy in the house and having a box of unopened girl scout cookies at my desk, I did not cave to any of those. I honestly didn't think much about sugar over the week and nor did I get depressed about not having any.

Last night, I went out with my BFF, Amy to a neat little movie theater that is a restaurant, tavern, and movie theater all in one. So...we ate dinner, had drinks, and watched Valentines Day. It was such a good time! :) I didn't eat low-carb while I was there (surprise, surprise) and I enjoyed a couple of margaritas. I also have to admit that I did have some peanut M & M's while I was there. What I did learn from last night is that I get super bloated when I go back to eating "normally" and I feel completely gross afterward.

I don't know how I want to lose this weight but I'm determined to lose it. I look disgusting. One thing that I get so angry at myself about is that I do not think I am an ugly person. To the contrary, I like the way that I look. Dare I say that I think I'm pretty? I look back at my old thin pictures and get so angry because I could be so much prettier than what I am now. Now I just look like a huge, bloated version of my old self. Now I am not saying that being overweight makes one ugly, because I find many overweight people attractive (myself included), but I could definitely be more attractive if I didn't have a double chin, bat wings, and thunder thighs. Know what I mean???

Like I mentioned before, I love losing the weight quickly on low-carb but what I absolutely hate is how difficult it is to maintain the diet with my on-the-go lifestyle. I've determined in order to be successful on a low-carb diet that you must have a stove readily available or that you must cook/prepare everything ahead of time and then reheat it. That requires time, which I don't have much extra of. And Matt will do a lot of that, but I feel bad shoving one more thing off on him. The other problem I ran into this week was the huge amounts of sodium I was consuming; from the bacon, olives, and other things I was eating. Gross! One "staple" that we forgot to buy for the week was slim jims, which are terrible as far as being too processed and chock full o' sodium.

I'm thinking that maybe I need to do some more research on low-carb dieting to get some ideas on non-processed, lower-sodium foods/meals to eat. I don't think I'm ready to abandon this altogether just yet. I wish wasn't so damn indecisive!

On a totally unrelated note, I am really enjoying having my sister Naomi "back". We are talking on the phone several times a week now and we've even gotten her into Facebook now! :) I really want to spend more time with her, but the amount of homework I have right now is INSANE. She is coming over next weekend with the baby though. And I'll be on break so I'll actually get to spend some quality time with her. Mom is coming down too since she has got to watch the boys for us since we're going to the Puscifer concert next Sunday. YEAH! I cannot wait for our night out on the town in the big ole city of Cleveland (well...not exactly - Lorain - but that's pretty darn close).

Day #1 of re-starting low-carb & the dreaded weigh-in

244.4 lbs. That's what I weighed in at today. When I was logging my weight in to Sparkpeople.com, I realized that I am exactly 20 lbs. heavier than I was in June 2009. Bummer. I am thankful though that it wasn't higher because it certainly should be after all the food I've jammed into my pie hole over the last several months. :o|

I did end up walking at lunch today. Approx. 1 1/2 miles. It was BEAUTIFUL out today! I am SO excited for Spring to be upon us. This is the easiest time of the year for me to commit to walking/jogging.

Day #1 of re-starting low-carb has went well. No cravings for sweets today and the food was actually pretty tasty. I'm pretty sure I'm done eating for the day because I'm so satisfied that I'm almost full. I did have a case of what I call the "fuzzy head" this afternoon. Sugar withdrawal feels very similar to the feelings you get when you quit smoking or don't have caffeine for a day or two. I popped a couple ibuprofen though and I'm fine now. My net carbs for the day were 17. Yay!

Getting excited!

About starting tomorrow. We've got our meals and snacks planned for the week. I even think I'm going to walk during lunch tomorrow since there will be a heat wave - it's supposed to be in the mid-40s.

The only day I might have some difficulties with is Friday. I have "date" night with my BFF Amy, who I haven't seen in 6 months. We're going to see a movie at the Hilliard Movie Tavern where we'll get to eat dinner, have drinks, and watch our movie at the same time. I'm sure I can order grilled chicken and veggies though. Just got to stick to my guns...

I'll check in again tomorrow with the dreaded weigh-in. :(

Back on the low-carb wagon

AGAIN!

Although I know that I cannot do a low-carb diet permanently, I need to drop some weight and I need to drop it quick. Matt & I have a big weekend coming up where I'm going to meet one of my all-time favorite celebrities/musicians, Maynard James Keenan of TOOL, A Perfect Circle, & Puscifer. I can't wait! What is really depressing is that I really, really want a women's t-shirt for the concert and they only go up to XL. That's a motivating factor right there. Plus, I'm going to have Maynard's love child and I know he doesn't want to pro-create with a cow. :oP

I also figure it's about damn time I do something about my weight. I haven't really put much more on since my last post, but I'm certainly not losing any. I'm just feeling like shit again, my clothes are tight, and I'm sick of my double chin. In looking over my recent pictures on Facebook, I don't hardly have any because I do NOT want my pictures taken right now. I also really, REALLY want to run a 5K this year.

I think I'm ready though. I've taken, what a 6 month hiatus??? At least. There are a lot of things I like on low-carb so I think I can hang in there for awhile. I figure once I get burned out, I'll get back on Weight Watchers and stick to something long term. Matt & I are kicking around the idea of doing the Core plan but we're just playing it by ear right now.

So...here I go again on the weight loss band train....on Monday that is. (damn you girl scouts and your cookies!)