There were a couple of things I wanted to share that I thought you might be interested in.
We discussed my binge eating (I am so ashamed of those two words but the truth hurts). Sugar is my downfall, which she explained to me is very common with binge eaters. She explained to me that when the first bite of a sugar-laden food is consumed that the majority of the pleasure centers in the brain light up. The second bite lights up less and then the third bite barely lights up any. By the time you get to the fourth bite, little to none of the pleasure centers light up. So, in theory (according to her), if you have a craving you should have one to three bites, put it down and if you still want it 20 minutes later, then have another bite or two and so on until you are satisfied. She thinks that if I try this that I won't want any more after the first three bites.
I have yet to try this because I'm eating low carb and sugar is not conducive to this lifestyle. If I get in a pinch, I'll try this and let you know what I think.
She also doesn't think I should low-carb 'diet' either. I explained to her that I'm well aware that whatever I decide to do that it has to be a lifestyle change and not a diet. The problem is that I am sooooo hungry on any other 'diet' that it sends me into crazy binging sprees...not a good thing at all. So...unbeknownst to her, I'm going to keep low-carbing until I've made a valiant effort and can't lose any more weight. I'm hoping that I won't have to do that but we'll see.
The other thing she suggested is basically savoring food one time by myself. I'm supposed to look at it, smell it, feel the weight of it on my fork, savor the flavor while eating it...you get the point. I have yet to do this too because I never have time alone to do this and there's no way in hell that I'm doing that in front of Matt or the boys...they'd really think that I lost it then! LOL
Lastly, she wants me to start working on this workbook:
I leafed through the first few pages on Amazon.com and it looks really interesting. She said that the first half of the book doesn't even deal much with sexual abuse and it looks like she's right. I ordered it off of half.com for like $8 and I can't wait to get it.
It's been since Sunday night that I ate anything really bad. This is killing me. I'm a little hungry but nothing crazy and all I want to do is go into the kitchen and eat half of the plate of cookies that my MIL baked with the boys today. Maybe I'll get a sugar-free ice cream bar or a couple of sugar-free chocolates instead...
