Saturday, February 20, 2010

Finally in a blogging mood!

I have seriously got to get back in to blogging on a regular basis! I think a big reason why I haven't is because this has become more of a weight loss/gain/gripe blog and I have totally deviated away from even trying to lose weight for the last couple of months. The other reasons are: a) I'm super, super busy and b) we've had a lot going on over the past few months.

Matt's grandpa passed away about a week and a half ago. I still can't believe he's gone. :( Adrian was pretty upset but didn't want me to know. Collin doesn't understand at all, which is probably good. Poor Matt has been worrying so much about everyone else that I don't think he's been able to grieve properly. I've just been trying to be as supportive as possible. It's hard being that losing him is the first real loss that we've had to deal with as adults. :(
School seems to be kicking my ass this quarter. I absolutely HATE my Microeconomics class! Too much boring reading and too many graphs that I can't understand to save my life. Business algebra isn't too bad but I still struggle with some of it since math is not my strong suit. Next quarter is Statistics and International Business Law. Fun, fun!

My sister Naomi is finally out of jail and I have a new (and actually my first) nephew as of almost 3 weeks ago. His name is Josiah Robert Jobe. He was 9 lbs. even and 21.6 inches long!!! Gosh do I love him?! He is perfect and just the sweetest, best little baby! Naome is doing the best she's ever done right now. She's been clean and sober for almost 9 months now and I can actually carry on a conversation with her. We've been talking almost daily and this is the first time she's ever called me to ask questions about how to take care of the baby. I honestly think she's going to make it now. I just want to cry thinking about it since her being sober is all we've wanted for all of these years.
I guess I should update you on the (lack of) weight loss. I'm pretty sure that I've gained back all that I lost. A couple of weeks ago I weighed in at 240 lbs., which is only 8 lbs. shy of when I first really started trying to lose weight about two years ago. To say that I am frustrated, embarrassed, or humiliated would be an understatement. I have GOT to make some time to start working out again. I am seriously contemplating actually starting to physically go to Weight Watchers meetings. Maybe by me having to pay that much more money and having to be accountable every week will help. I just don't know anymore. My schedule is the biggest problem right now. Here is a typical week day:
6:15-6:30 - wake up
7:15 - leave to go to work
8:15 - arrive at work
12:30-1:30 - lunch hour (I sometimes work 1/2 hour lunches to make up time and recently I've started doing homework)
5:15-5:30 or 6:00 - leave to go home
6:30-7:00 - arrive home
7:00-11:30 to midnight (usually the latter) - eat dinner (thank God Matt cooks!), load of laundry, homework, (maybe) spending time with Matt or the boys, Facebook (of course! ;) and maybe a TV show if I'm lucky.
If I end up having a doctor's appointment, to grocery shop, or something else I don't account for, that REALLY throws my schedule off. My lunch hour is where I'm going to have to squeeze the exercising in (again). I'm also going to have to start planning my meals/snacks better too. It's just been so hard with stuff with Naomi (I picked her up from jail and have visited a couple times since then) and Grandpa's passing. I am just really hoping that things will get back to normal soon...

Here is a pic of Josiah to close this entry :)