Doing much better!

I had a crappy high calorie day today but did not binge I am happy to report. It was tough because I was gone all day and woke up late so I ate out twice. Breakfast was a Sausage McMuffin and a McCafe mocha. Lunch was a KFC Snacker meal with potato wedges but I only ate one of the sandwiches. Dinner was a Healthy Choice meal. My snacks are actually what got me today. I had a chocolate with white chocolate chunk cookie and a small brownie at my work seminar. I didn't really want to eat them; I honestly only got them because I was falling asleep and needed some sugar/caffeine and because my co-workers got some and I didn't want to be the odd man out. I was under on my water too so I'm sure my official weigh-in isn't going to be good tomorrow, but you never know!

I'm doing much better as far as the depression goes. I don't know what the hell was wrong with me?! I think it was just a combination of skipping my meds, starting my period, and stress from work/school/home coming down on me. I cried every night for like 3 nights straight. Today I'm just feeling really run down. I'm definitely looking forward to the 3-day weekend.

I'm trying to convince Matt to have a date night with me this weekend. We really need one plus we have to go birthday shopping for the boys' party next weekend. Wish me luck on that...he didn't sound too interested since he's so busy with projects around here...

I think I know what my problem is

I have stopped turning to food for comfort.

I had a light bulb moment as I was crying myself to sleep last night. I know the skipping my medication has something to do with it as well but it's more so to do with not turning to food to numb my pain or make me forget about my stresses anymore.

Now I just have to figure out something else to de-stress with.

I have never felt so alone in my life when I know that I'm not. WTH is wrong with me? I just wish I could snap out of this. Maybe it's my hormones too? I started on Monday so I'm sure that isn't helping things.

Hopefully things will be back to normal soon...

Depressed

Now I'm not just stressed...I'm depressed. Guess that's what I get for skipping two days of my medication on top of all the other stress I've got going on. I just feel like I want to cry but I don't have the energy.

I've got so much shit running through my head right now. I really just need to stop and take some time to de-stress by myself...no kids, no husband, no internet, and no homework.

I seriously felt like I was on the verge of a nervous breakdown yesterday evening. What I have known for awhile (but I try not to think about) is that I am NOT a good multitasker. Lately, I've been focusing on getting healthy, working out, etc. and then I let my housework fall behind and my family time fall to the wayside. When I focus on keeping the house in order, I drive myself crazy because it will never be perfect with all boys in the house and then I feel like a failure.

I just can't do it all. I'm not supermom, superwife, superfriend, superemployee, or superstudent. I know that and I hate it. I try to be a strong person and not think about things that will upset me. I try not to worry about things I have no control over. I'm just at a loss because I feel like I'm being pulled in so many directions and have so many priorities that I don't know where I should start first. So...I just avoid certain things.

I've been trying to avoid doing this for a long, long time but I think I have no other choice. I'm going to have to stop being selfish and doing things that make me happy (i.e. internet time, T.V watching, etc.) because by everything not being done and tended to like it should be, it's hurting and negatively affecting my family.

Gah. This sucks. One thing that I learned early on when I was a single mom was to stop and take time out for myself to keep my sanity. Unfortunately, I just don't have that luxury anymore. I made that choice a long time ago when I decided to go back to school. I just can't believe it's taken me this long to finally get my shit together and realize that.

To top things off, my sexual abuse issues are surfacing with the weight loss. It's hitting me the hardest when I come in close contact with men while I'm jogging. I take my cell phone with me just "in case" anything might happen. I feel violated all over again when a stranger looks at me. I should probably get back to working on my abuse workbook. I got so wrapped up in this quest to get healthy that I put that on the back burner and now it's cropped back up since I'm getting thinner and feeling prettier.

I have been getting numerous compliments at work about my weight loss and toning. It's great on one hand but then on the other hand it drudges up all the past stuff when people tell me how good I'm looking.

God. I just want to be normal. Just once.

Stressed!

I just tracked my food; got in about 1400 calories. I didn't do any snacking today at all...I was either too busy or my nerves were too shot to think about eating.

I had my first public speaking engagement as I mentioned before. I actually did better than I thought I would. There is still definitely room for improvement but I was pleased with how everything went overall, as were my peers and the people who count. I got some good constructive criticism and I am going to attend an extra client seminar (on Thursday) to get to see one of our supervisors in action doing our piece of the seminar. She is going over the same material as I am so I'm curious to see the spin she puts on things. I definitely think I could learn a couple things from her. :) I'm not done with public speaking just yet...I have my next/last seminar for the year on Thursday next week...

I really like the food journaling but my life is crazy busy right now so I apologize ahead of time if I don't keep up with it. I am tracking my food in SparkPeople and so that's all that really matters to me right now. I will put a link to my SP food log when I get a free minute.

I am also going to start limiting my internet time for awhile. Matt has been shouldering much the burden of the household stuff for awhile and so I need to focus on helping him get stuff back on track. I fully intend on keeping up with my blog, as well as SP, and popping in on BabyCenter every now and then but I'm going to have to cut way back on BabyCenter personals since I just don't have the time to keep up with everyone right now. This sucks but I have to be more productive...even if it means sacrificing my own sanity for awhile...yeah...sad, I know. The mindless internet surfing keeps me sane...

Eek!

Sorry for not journaling the past couple of days. If you hadn't noticed by now weekends are the hardest for me. I probably won't journal today either...I'm going to be crazy busy today. I will say that Friday I was over a couple hundred calories but yesterday wasn't bad at all, although I did have a couple of Mike's Hard Punches. Today I plan on behaving. Tomorrow I am getting back on track and Shredding again.

Right now, I am shitting bricks thinking about my first public speaking engagement tomorrow. I have not practiced AT ALL (although I do know the material well) and so I'm going to do that later on, once I have my homework and a little more housework done.

Please, please, please keep your fingers crossed for me tomorrow. This could make or break me for future promotions...

Food journal - day #15

Today was a good day. :)

Breakfast - 8:45 - Cinnamon crunch bagel from Panera. I felt a little guilty eating this because of yesterday but it was for our monthly departmental birthday celebration so I went ahead and ate it. It was pretty tasty and filling (for about an hour!).

Lunch - 12:00 - Margherita pizza x4 slices. I agonized over this before I left for this business lunch. I hate salads plus I'm always afraid that I'm going to have stomach issues at inopportune times, if you know what I mean. Unfortunately, Buca Di Beppo doesn't have nutritional information and so I googled the pizza and got a rough estimate of the calories and whatnot - only 325 calories per service (2 slices). I was hungry and so I ate 4 pieces. I felt a little guilty but not too much since the pieces were very thin and only had sauce, cheese, and basil on it.

Dinner - 5:30 - Healthy Choice Salisbury steak meal with mixed veggies, red-skinned potatoes, and apples w/cinnamon. I wanted to eat more but I had to run for school.

Snack - 9:30 - Turkey, light string cheese, carrots, and cantaloupe. I knew that I had to eat this since I was almost 700 calories under for the day...plus I was still hungry from not getting full from dinner.

Snack - 10:30 - SF chocolate pudding & choc chip granola bar. I was still under my calories and my calcium & fiber intake for the day (those are a couple other things I'm tracking) so I ate this for that reason, plus I was still a little hungry. I am full, but not stuffed. Good snack! (can you tell I'm PMSing here?) :oP

Water - 120 oz.
Exercise - None :( I could not drag my butt out of bed this morning. I'm still not getting to bed on time and I'm sleeping a little too good. I am going to walk/jog at lunch tomorrow and either shred when I get home or go on a bike ride to make up for my lack of exercise over the past couple of days. I feel like a slug and I actually miss working out. I never thought I'd say that but I really, really do miss it! :)

I am also happy to report that I finally made an appointment with my family doctor to get my thyroid checked in light of my mom's recent hypothyroidism diagnosis. She also informed me that I have a couple more relatives on her side of the family with thyroid problems. Plus, my paternal grandma has had a goiter removed twice now. I guess it just makes sense. I'm also going to have him do a general health workup...do some blood work, check my blood pressure, and all that other good stuff. It would be so nice to get an explanation for all of my symptoms that I've had for probably 15 years now - chronic fatigue, hair loss, extreme weight gain (80 lbs. in 5 years!), and some other things. I've had it checked a few times before but not for probably 5+ years and so I'm interested to see if anything has changed...

Keep your fingers crossed for my weigh-in tomorrow. I hope that I'm still down at least 3.3 lbs. but I won't be surprised if I'm not since I was a little down on my water yesterday and I still haven't started my period. I'm sure that I'm retaining water for that reason. We shall see. :)

Oh, and I was 200 calories under for the day. Yay!

Food journal - day #14

Today was a zinger! I had a client meeting and was out of the office the whole day. I hate getting out of my routine...it totally messes up my mojo.

Breakfast - 9:00 - Jimmy Dean D-Light Canadian bacon w/egg white and cheese on whole grain English muffin, FF yogurt, SF applesauce, coffee w/regular creamer.

Lunch - 12:00 - Grilled chicken breast w/mixed fruit (cantaloupe, honeydew, & pineapple). And then...I had a piece of peanut butter pie for dessert. I think I've talked about my love of PB pie on here before. We were in Amish country and ate at an Amish restaurant and I always get a piece o' PB pie when I'm at that type of restaurant. *blushes*

Snack - 2:00 - Bumpy nerd jelly beans. To be honest, I know I didn't need more sugar after the pie but I was dragging ass and was trying to wake myself up because I was all of the sudden exhausted. It didn't help.

Dinner - 8:00 - low-carb pizza. Yummy, yummy, yummy!

Water - 80 oz. I have GOT to get this up tomorrow since weigh-in is on Friday!
Exercise - not a darn thing. :(

I ended up getting home a little before 5:00 and I was just wiped out! I ended up laying down around 5:30 for a nap and didn't wake up until Matt woke me up for dinner at 8:00. I felt a little guilty but I honestly RARELY ever take a nap and so I didn't stress over it too much. By the time I finished eating dinner, did a load of laundry, cleaned our family room, and bathed Collin, it was 10:00 and way too late to try to work out. I'm going to go to bed shortly and *TRY* to get up at 5:00 tomorrow to work out since I really need to get another Shred session in. Anyone who knows me knows that probably won't happen but one can dream big right? :oP

BTW, prior to today's bad eating day (I was over by about 200 calories), I did a mid-week weigh-in and was down 3.3 lbs. as of this morning. Please, please, please keep your fingers crossed for me for the official weigh-in! :)

Food journal - day #13

I was an exercising fool today. I feel GREAT!

Breakfast: 9:30 - Jimmy Dean D-Light sausage w/egg white and cheese on whole grain English muffin, FF yogurt, SF applesauce, regular coffee w/SF vanilla creamer.

Lunch: 1:00 - Turkey sandwich on pita bread, baby carrots, and light string cheese. I didn't get a chance to eat my apple because I was absolutely swamped at work today!

Dinner #1: 5:15 - Healthy Choice Sweet & Sour Chicken with broccoli and peach cobbler. Yummy!

I was supposed to go to school tonight but I skipped it and worked over since I am behind on some stuff that is due soon. When I went grocery shopping this week, I decided to pick up a few HC meals for dinner instead of fast food so I wouldn't be tempted to get something I shouldn't have like a milkshake or sundae. I am trying to cut down on my processed foods intake but I felt like this was the lesser of two evils...

Dinner #2: 7:00 - Grilled lean ham, broccoli & cauliflower, and an apple.

Snack - 9:45 - Grilled lean ham, Rold Gold honey wheat pretzels, and SF chocolate pudding.

Water: 120 oz.
Exercise: 3 miles of walking/jogging (half of which I probably jogged!) and 5.5 miles of cycling tonight with the family. Collin loves his new seat! We had SO much fun! What a great way to get healthy and bond with your family?! :) Also, according to SP, I burned over 700 calories. Woo-hoo!

Even with all this food, I am about under my calories by about 300 according to SP. I haven't ate the 9:45 snack yet but I'll wait a few minutes and if I'm still hungry, I'll eat something else. Just not sure what yet...nothing bad though. :) I've done too well today to ruin it!

Food journal - day #12

Back on track. Yeah!

Breakfast: 9:15 - Jimmy Dean D-Light sausage w/egg white and cheese on whole grain English muffin, FF yogurt, SF applesauce, regular coffee w/SF vanilla creamer.

Lunch: 12:30 - Turkey sandwich on pita bread, baby carrots, apple, and light string cheese. I was completely stuffed after this meal and wasn't sure I was going to be able to get in my afternoon snack.

Snack: 2:30 - Baby carrots, peaches in lite syrup (made w/Splenda), and FF yogurt.

Dinner: 5:30 - Grilled chicken sandwich and small fry from Wendy's since we (Adrian & I) had to eat on the way to the salon.

Snack: 10:30 - Fiber One bar, courtesy of my BFF. I will eat this after this post. It looks pretty tasty...Oats and chocolate or something like that.

I started the SlimQuick today and I have definitely noticed a difference. My hunger is down and my energy is up without the heart palpitations and without feeling like I'm bouncing off the wall.

Water: 120 oz.! :) One day down, 4 more to go before weigh-in day.
Exercise: Walked/jogged 1.45 miles in 22 min. 15 sec. which equates to a 15 min. 20 sec. mile. :D I'm pretty sure I broke a record with this (for myself obviously) and I'm super excited about it!

Sorry for being such a Debby Downer and broken record last night. This is so hard but I'm trying and I refuse to give up! :)

>_<

I'm here peeps. I fell off the wagon for a couple of days but I'm back.

Negative highlights of the weekend: I had ice cream (twice) and ate at the Texas Roadhouse last night for dinner.


Positive highlights: I did my third level one shred workout yesterday before I left town. I did bring healthy snacks for the zoo trip yesterday and actually ate them. I brought water to drink and ate some carrots and light string cheese. Last night, I only ate half my baked potato and half of my burger and boxed up the rest.


I'm bummed (actually downright depressed) over the fact that I gained .3 lbs. at Friday's weigh-in but know that I was at fault for that and I'm the one who has control over my weight. I also know that I still have a LONG road ahead of me and that I refuse to give up! (no matter how much I self-sabotage or fall off the wagon)


I am done being the fat girl. I am done shopping in plus sized clothing sections. I am done feeling like shit from the time I wake up until I go to bed. I'm tired of my 11-year old son being embarrassed to be seen in public with me and of him having his own issues (i.e. being afraid to get fat). I am tired of being the "fat" friend to all of my gorgeous, thin, healthy friends. I hate the fact that my husband weighs less than me now. I hate the fact that I feel like I have no self-control. I hate it when people make losing weight look so easy when it's the hardest thing I've ever done. I hate the fact that I eat to stuff my emotions down and so I won't feel.


That felt good.


Hope everyone had a happy Mother's Day. Mine was pretty crappy. We weren't home for half the day because of this zoo/family outing (my own doing). The kids fought on the way home. Matt is grumpy as hell because the effing Chantix isn't working (to keep his irritability in check - and probably because he's tired from doing for everyone else, us included, and not doing anything for himself and being able to get anything done around the house). I was so EXHAUSTED that I slept almost the whole way home and then fell asleep on and off for about two hours while I was trying to do homework. I finally got through 2/3 of my homework and had to go shopping since we had very little food in the house for breakfast and lunch this week.



I did pick myself up some gifts for mothers' day though...some chocolate chip cookie dough ice cream and a bottle of SlimQuick. I ate one bowl of ice cream, which I shared with Collin. The boys get the rest of it this week. I will NOT eat anymore...that I can promise you! I am not a big pill fan but I have got to get this nighttime hunger in check; it is part of what is sabotaging this weight loss.


Some things I am doing differently this week are:


1) Eating a Jimmy Dean D-Lights breakfast sandwich with fruit for breakfast. I've got the turkey sausage and then the Canadian bacon varieties. I am interested to see if this helps with the hunger.

2) No more apple and peanut butter. Instead, it will be an apple with a light string cheese or fat free yogurt and maybe even a veggie.

3) Get to bed earlier (except for tonight since I was up late doing homework) and get 7.5 hours of sleep. I have heard that if you don't get enough sleep that that can hinder your weight loss. That's probably another reason why I feel like shit all the time, despite my consistent working out.

4) Starting SlimQuick. I know what you're thinking since I absolutely hate taking pills and am really against people taking pills to lose weight. I'm at my wits end and I'm just about willing to try anything right now that will help out with this hunger! I promise if I start feeling funny or anything I will stop taking them. I will also keep you posted on how they work.

5) More water!!! Perhaps this is most important. I am going to shoot for at least 80 oz a day but optimally, I would like to get in 120 oz. per day.

Here are a couple of pics from our outing yesterday...I have many more but don't have them uploaded to my laptop so I had to steal them from Matt's Facebook...

Food journal - day #11

I was actually within my SP recommended calories today!

Breakfast - 10:00: whole wheat bagel w/strawberry cream cheese, banana, fat-free yogurt, coffee w/creamer and SF coffee syrup.

Lunch - 12:15: turkey sandwich on low-carb whole wheat bread, cauliflower w/yogurt ranch dressing, light string cheese, and applesauce.

Snack - 2:30: apple w/peanut butter.

Dinner - 5:30: Panera - Sierra turkey sandwhich, broccoli & cheddar soup, and whole grain baguette. I heart this meal. I think I'm going to make this a weekly tradition before school.

Snack - 9:30: Sugar-free sno-cone (thanks for the great idea, Becky!).

Water: 72 oz.
Exercise: I walked/jogged 3 miles today! I actally jogged about a quarter of the whole trek. I think I may have *finally* learned how to jog without hurting myself. I paid attention to others this past weekend at the 5K and I think I was jogging too hard. I've modified my jogging now and that *seems* to be doing the trick. Keep your fingers crossed for me because I really, really want to be a runner.

Food journal - day #10

It was ugly today. I didn't plan well at all and I worked my usual Wednesday overtime which got me all screwed up. Here goes anyway:

Breakfast - 10:00: whole wheat bagel w/strawberry cream cheese, banana, fat-free yogurt, coffee w/creamer and SF coffee syrup.

Lunch - 12:15: turkey sandwich on pita bread, cauliflower w/yogurt ranch dressing, light string cheese, and applesauce.

Snack - 2:45: carrots w/yogurt ranch dressing and light string cheese (I forgot my apple today :( )

Snack - 3:45: chex mix chocolate bar. Really, really tasty! My BFF Amy bought these and didn't like them so she gave them to me. Yay for me! (or maybe not?)

Snack - 5:00: 100 calorie popcorn.

Snack - 6:30: small can of cheesy pringles. I had to stop to use the restroom at the gas station on the way home and I was starving by this point and knew I still had to work out so I bought a 220 calorie can of these. I was proud of myself though. I really wanted a large bag of chips but I refrained. I also bought two small bags of smarties which I didn't touch.

Dinner - 8:00: two soft tacos using low-carb tortillas, fat-free refried beans, hamburger, cheese, fat-free sour cream, lettuce, and salsa. Everything was "healthy" in this except for the daggone hamburger. The fact that it wasn't lean ruined the whole meal. I'm way over my calories now and can't eat anything the rest of the night...which I'm okay with. I'm full and exhausted so I fully plan on going to bed here soon.

Water: 90 oz.

Exercise: 1.45 mile walk/jog in 24 minutes (I actually jogged maybe 1/4 or 1/3 of this) and Level 1 of the 30-day shred. My calves are absolutely KILLING me and so I hope I haven't injured myself. I think I'm going to take some Ibuprofen and put some bio-freeze on my calves. (and think about poor Becky's experience with topical pain relievers)

Tomorrow is a new day!

Food journal - day #9

More mental notes today...I am swamped at work right now and just don't have time to work on this all day. Argh!

Breakfast - 9:30: whole wheat bagel w/strawberry cream cheese, applesauce, and fat-free yogurt.

Lunch - 12:15: turkey sandwich on pita bread, cauliflower w/yogurt ranch dressing, light string cheese, and applesauce.

Snack - 2:45: apple w/peanut butter

Hmm...pretty much the same as yesterday.

Dinner - 5:15: Wendy's grilled chicken sandwich, (small) fries, and diet coke. I am SO proud of myself for this meal. Eating on the go is something I really struggle with and I didn't plan this beforehand. I was busy studying for an exam before I left work and was going to try to wait dinner out until after I got home. That didn't work and so I ended up stopping since I was so hungry. I totally picked this on a whim because I thought it would be the best choice and it looks like it was (other than a salad which is hard to eat while driving, LOL). I think the meal was a smidgen over 600 calories. It didn't stick with me very long though.

Snack - 6:00: 4 packs of smarties. Our instructor brought these in and I'm proud that I only had 4 packs. I wanted more but I exercised restraint. (probably would have had more if I had been by myself)

Snack - 9:30: radishes. Can you believe it?!

I'm still hungry (it's about 10:45) and so I'm going to get a serving of tortilla chips and salsa. I'm about 200 or 300 calories under for the day and I don't feel a bit guilty for this.

Water: I got in 80 oz. today.
Exercise: 3 mile walk. (my first one at lunch ever...yippee!) I really enjoyed this and so I'm going to shoot for this twice a week from now on.

My goal is to shred tomorrow but I think I will have to work overtime so I'm not sure if I'll get it in or not. Keep your fingers crossed because I really need to get it in.

Food journal - day #8

I didn't work on this all day today...I just made mental notes and I'm exhausted right now so I hope you're not expecting anything witty or funny...

Breakfast - 9:30: whole wheat bagel w/strawberry cream cheese, applesauce, and fat-free yogurt.

Lunch - 12:15: turkey sandwich on pita bread, cauliflower w/yogurt ranch dressing, light string cheese, and applesauce.

Snack - 2:45: apple w/peanut butter

Dinner - 7:00: low-carb pizzas. I actually cooked this meal if you can believe that?! Matt worked out tonight for the first time in months and so I didn't have much of a choice, although I didn't mind. (on a side note, I'm SO proud of him!!! He almost went 5 miles on his new bike tonight!)

Snack - 10:00: strawberry frosted mini wheats w/2% milk. I wasn't super hungry but I was like 300 calories under for the day and was having a sweet tooth. It was tasty.

Oh, I did my first day of Jillian Michaels' 30-day shred tonight. It kicked my butt! I have a sneaking suspicion that I'm going to really be feeling it tomorrow! I also walked 1.45 miles at lunch too...can you believe that?! What is wrong with me? ;)

Food journal - day #7

I'm feeling a tremendous amount of guilt for yesterday's food consumption. At least today is a new day, right?

I'm going to preface this by saying my schedule is all screwed up today.

Breakfast - Noon: whole wheat mini bagel w/strawberry cream cheese, sugar free-applesauce, fat-free yogurt, and regular coffee w/half and half and SF coffee syrup.

Snack - 2:45: 5 soft pretzel rods w/honey mustard dressing. I ate this at Walmart while we were shopping for the week. I really should have eaten something before I left the house. I'll know better next time.

Lunch" - 4:45: Turkey ham sandwich with cheese on low-carb/calorie wheat bread, cauliflower w/yogurt ranch dressing, and apple w/peanut butter.

Dinner - 7:00: Grilled boneless pork loin, macaroni and cheese, and green beans. The pork was delicious! DH found a new seasoning at Walmart called barbecue seasoning and it was tasty! It had a nice BBQ flavoring without the calories and sugar. I am pretty stuffed after this meal and hoping to avoid a late snack tonight.

Snack - 11:00: SF chocolate pudding. I was up late working on last minute homework for an on-line class. I felt good about this decision though. I am actually still under my calories and within my recommended SP ranges for fat, carbs, and protein. YAY!

If I didn't mention it yet, I'm starting Jillian Michaels' 30-day Shred tomorrow with my friend Becky. I am a bit intimidated and hope that I can stick to it. My motivation has been lacking in the fitness department and I'm extremely sore from the 5K yesterday. We shall see...

Food journal - day #6 / Commit to be Fit 5K

Gosh, I did bad on my food today! However, I refuse to quit the food journal! :) So here goes:


6:15 - Breakfast: bacon, egg, & cheese croissant and double mocha cappuccino. This was actually pretty filling and held me over for awhile.


10:00 Snack: banana and small vitamin water. I am SO proud of myself for this. I passed up free Panera bagels and Donatos pizza for these two things. I wanted a bagel SO badly but I refrained. Oh, I did have a small glass of champagne with this because one of my co-workers insisted that I drink it. I didn't want to be rude. ;)


11:30 - Lunch: chips & salsa, taco salad, and 2 1/2 margaritas. That was the first and last time I'll drink that early in the day. Wow-wee!


6:00 - Snack: pretzels.


6:30 - Cherry Icee.


8:30 - Dinner: 3 pieces of supreme pizza. I wanted more but had to bring some pizza home to Matt and so I didn't get any. Good thing. It actually ended up being pretty filling. :)


The 5K was SO much fun! We are definitely going to do this every year. My work is a sponsor and so we get $10 off per person and they have a camper set up where we hung out before and after the race. It's almost kind of like healthy tailgating.


Anywho...we missed Adrian's race. We were stuck in traffic for almost an hour and I felt horrible. He ended up doing the 5K with us though so that made up for it. We actually ran part of it...about one minute to every 5 minutes of walking.


I can't even describe how proud I was to be running with Adrian when we did. A fellow 5Ker told us how awesome she thought it was that Adrian was doing the 5K with me. I told her that I was actually doing it for him. :) We actually heard a few positive comments that just affirmed that I need to lose this weight and get healthy...not only for me but to set a good example for Adrian & Collin.


Here are the results:


http://www.columbusdistanceclassic.com/results/2009/5k_overall.txt - overall I placed 1310th place out of 1597 participants.

http://www.columbusdistanceclassic.com/results/2009/5k_agegroups.txt - in my age group, I placed 189th out of 216 women.


Definitely not the fastest but at least I have something to gauge myself by for the next one. ;)


It was a great day! I can't wait to do some more fitness-related challenges like this! :D


Oh, here are a couple of pictures before I forget:

Edited to add: I did have a pack of Airhead Extremes before I went to bed.

Food journal - day #5

8:15 - Breakfast: whole wheat mini-bagel w/strawberry cream cheese, banana, non-fat yogurt, and coffee w/regular creamer and sugar-free DaVinci coffee syrup.

I headed out to buy the boys' some clothes at Once Upon a Child at lunch and *almost* stopped at UDF for a Peanut Butter shake. I'm SO glad I didn't. :)

12:15 - Lunch: turkey sandwich on pita bread, carrots w/yogurt ranch dressing, light string cheese, and sugar-free applesauce. I am SO excited about this meal. I decided to stop adding American cheese or condiments to my "sandwich" and it cut out almost 200 calories. The meal is still filling though since I replaced the American cheese with the light string cheese. I'm only at 738 calories for the day after this meal.

3:30 - Snack: apple w/peanut butter

6:30 - Snack: honey wheat pretzels. We decided to get Wendy's tonight since we were busy doing stuff around the house so I had to snack on something to tide me over.

7:30 - Taco Salad 9:30 - Wine. This tasted so good! I really wanted it after the week I've had!

Tomorrow is my first 5K. I'm not running but I'm excited nonetheless. Adrian is going with us so not only will we get our daily fitness in, but we'll get some much needed quality one-on-one time with the little guy. :)

I will try to post some pics this weekend afterwards.